Light at the end of the tunnel

Well... kind of. A friend that I have met though my agency and had lunch with found out today that she is OUT of PGN!!! YIPEEE! She was one of the few to fly through PGN without a dreaded Previo and I could not be happier for her. She deserves it. It shows that there is promise... it may take a while, but Eliza will be home.

6 more days until I know she goes to the doctor... which means new pictures are soon to follow, and maybe word that the rash is gone.

Ho Ho Ho

Our Santa Picture... I thought Silas would be screaming ( and warned them before partaking) BUT NO... he liked "Ho-Ho"... and stole a reindeer hat.

Happy 3 months Eliza!

Today is Eliza's 3 month birthday. At each month birthday with my boys I would get out the video camera and tape my babies for as long as they would let me. Talking that mommy talk and cooing away. It is hard that I cannot do that today. I do not know how she is growing, how much she is cooing, if she is gaining weight... any of that. Hopefully I will get a Dr. report sometime next week, but until then I just wonder.

BUT I also rejoice!! You know, this process is harder than I ever thought it would be. The lack of control, the emotional roller coaster, the waiting and WAITING. But I choose to REJOICE!! Why? Because I have to. Because I have a daughter, because I have been blessed yet again, and because the Lord has given so much to me. So, I praise Him, praise Him for my family, praise Him for my daughter, and praise Him for carrying me through this process. Without Him I would be a puddle on the floor.

"In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." 1 Thessalonians 5:18

Spending Time... Spending Money

Tuesdays and Thursdays are MY days... my boys are all in school ( Kindergarten and Mom's Day Out). I get to have a day to myself if I choose... or I spend the entire day CHRISTMAS SHOPPING! Which is what I did today. I went from store to store and tried my best to finish my list... I am close, but not quite. I also spent the day searching... you see last night my 3 year old threw a new one on me while visiting Santa at the mall. He told Santa that he wanted a "Batman Tower that holds the bad guys"... my mission to find the Batman Tower... FAILED!!!!

I did however have lunchat Pancho's (Mexican)with some girlfriends. I quietly practiced my spanish on the waiter and when he took off talking, I just smiled. I have a LOT to learn and it is HARD!!!!

P.S. SBP...I tried to turn off my anon comment block... TRIED...I do not know if it worked.

BAH Humbug

Typically I am a festive person... but the fact that someone I need to help me get my baby girl out of the waiting game we are in has been on his holiday vacation... FOR 3 weeks... and all of this week. I am happy that he gets some time off, but the fact that he has been out has set my adoption back a whole month!!!! Why is it that the system does not allow for that... why can no one else take care of his job. WHY WHY WHY!
I was told today that he will be back in next week and hopefully my issue will be resolved soon after... but no promises on how long. It could be he just needs to fix it quick or it could be he is so behind that it takes weeks... please God, not weeks!

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

I finally heard from my agency director last night. She told me she was a little concerned that I might be getting obsessed. I assured her that I was okay... just needing to hear some news on my baby girl. She told me she was checking in on it and hopefully I will hear something soon on Family Court, my I-72 and her rash. Until then... a little lesson on patience and control...

Locked Blog

Wouldn't you know it... as soon as I get up and running. Blogger thinks my blog is SPAM. They are supposed to be checking it out and I can save posts as drafts but cannot publish them. Maybe I will get to post them someday.